then there’s sharing and not share
Then there’s actual not knowing 'till someone tells
I can’t 'till when I’m offending others
I have past scenes so worried what if I offended, that I’m the type of person who don’t want to hurt peoples feelings. Then I overly worry that I hurt peoples feelings and I run around saying I’m sorry. This happen off line. I run around saying, I’m sorry. As my mind would think of something later, and I overly worry did I offend, I would go on a chase to find the person and say I’m sorry
People would get upset that I’m saying I’m sorry. Then I say sorry for saying sorry, and that would upset them more. I would be confused. Plus some people claims no memory so not even understanding what I’m saying sorry about. I knew I had to change this and not say sorry often. But I also knew I needed to understand this more., understand people, how to communicate to people?
So lately I’ve been seeing if I can understand why people had no awareness of what I was even appologiesing, so instead of quickly saying I’m sorry to people, I asked first, to find out.
That’s what I did when I asked @Terry_Sampson if he remember monster letter of YHWH and @Terry_Sampson wrote he doesn’t remember. So I thought ok then due to not remember then I don’t say I’m sorry. I felt a sense of growth. First investigate to find out then make a decision to say sorry or not say sorry. There I didn’t say sorry because there’s no memory.
Now I see that word monster again and I’m thinking wow others uses that word too
See how George MacDonald used the word Monster
I yet will read what George MacDonald wrote
So far all I’ve been doing is sharing my spiritual personal journey relationship with God and as I do a few here would tell me the God I go to is false
I’ve interacted with Jews online. I feel more accepted by Jews then I do by Christians. Because at least Jews don’t keep telling me the God I go to is false.
Here’s about inner ‘I’ I shared in this forum.
As @Dale would continue to tell me the God I go to is false
My mistake is my seeing if I can show @Dale that the God I go to is my best friend
It started the day when @Dale explain he survived kidney cancer
I wanted to show Kindness too. Plus at age 3 I almost died from neglect and from kidney infection and I’m a surviver from abuse and my kidneys are healthy. I only was thinking of showing kindness to @Dale but I used the wrong name in a Christian forum, I used the word Allah which means light
Instead of any focus on how both @Dale and I survived our kidney situation., @Dale lost a kidney, and did show more kindness to him as his concerns about his one kidney and covid and immune situation - I thought @Dale and I were sharing however this was an exodus thread,
so I thought I better some how include Exodus, and so I did by asking about horses, and it moved on towards back to Exodus., little did I know @Dale will be following me around with everything I write, and keep telling me the God I go to is false.
My mistake was, I tried to prove God is my best friend
I always thought the debate would had been, how come God didn’t make the abuse stop., as I hid in God, instead the debate is, the God I ran to for protection is this God true or false?
I have been told by @Dale that the God I go to is false sense June and it’s the end of November now. That’s 5 months. What 5 months I went through this
Lesson learn, I will never try again to prove to anyone the God I went to is my best friend
I will be making some changes in this forum. I will no longer prove that God I went to for protection is and still is my best friend.
I see more places using the word Monster