A bit about me before I begin. I grew up in a great non-denominational church all of my life and absolutely loved it. I always participated in all of the events that they did and served in the audio ministry for four years. Everything was fine until I went on to college and was exposed to a new worldview. Things started to go downhill after I read an article in National Geographic concerning miracles, and of course as a result I became more curious and skeptical. Weeks of googling and reading later, I became very depressed due to my findings concerning evolution, biblical interpretation/inerrancy, and other topics that seemed to shoot down everything I had once believed. It was like the life that I once had was literally sucked out of my body. I want to believe, because otherwise my life has utterly no meaning, and that is a very depressing thought indeed.
I understand that theistic evolution clears up some of my confusion, but honestly its hard to understand why God would use millions of years and evolution to create us. To me the science could point to God, but it just seems more likely that God was just invented by evolving humans and created during the past few thousand years. Now I know that that likelihood does not in it of itself mean God does not exist, but it definitely seems to shift the burden onto reasons why God does exist.
Has anyone been in this situation before? How have you dealt with it (and hopefully got out of it)? What did you find helpful (it could be certain books, reasoning, personal experiences, etc)? How can we know that an invisible God works and exists in the world, especially today (modern miracles, personal experiences, NDEs, I really don’t know)? Has the modern world and our increasing understanding of the world buried God for good?
I only recently found this forum, but to my understanding there are people of all levels of belief here. If I could make one request, I would just ask that only those who continue to believe in God and Christianity to speak. I am not trying to be one-sided, because I have heard the “other side” for over a month now without ceasing, so I want both views.