You know… with all your talk of reading more perhaps I should give you something more to read which might help our communication with each other like this list of reasons why I believe. And keep reading the linked thread for more explanations as well.
I have no interest in a God reformulated as something people can use because that is the first step towards remaking God and religion into tool for power and manipulation.
I also have no interest in pseudoscience which uses the methods of rhetoric (as does religion and politics) but slaps the label of science on it in order to pretend otherwise.