Incorrect. What I said does not mean any such thing. While self-creation in growth and learning is the nature of life, it does not do this in a vacuum. The environment can include farmers, shepherds, teachers and parents who contribute a great deal. There is no room for a designer but there is room for God in these other roles. As for abiogenesis, it is clear that this only occurs is very special circumstances. So a question remains concerning how the required conditions came about. At the very least God created a universe in which this could exist, but I would take Genesis 1 to mean that God had a hand in preparing this particular environment for life, not that we could prove anything. I think God’s hand in our affairs is restricted to considerable subtlety so that it can be dismissed as chance by the skeptic.
The very fact you ask this question points to a fundamental difference between us. Why should God have any utility for you whatsoever? I worship God because of who He is (His character) not because of what He can do for me. Thus when it comes to a choice of serving an evil god for promises of comfort, I will choose calling out praises to the God of love and goodness between screams in the depths of hell.