Thank you, Ray! Sometimes I think I know what Sisyphus must have felt. Very maddening to wake up in the morning and having to revisit issues I thought I had settled long ago. I've made progress even if it is hard to see it sometimes.
Something Christy said, in an unrelated thread, combined with a video I watched last night from a very thoughtful Atheist made me realize something that is probably obvious to many. I need to live it as much as I think it. I've never done that before. Daunting for an extreme introvert but the big picture I am looking for can't be found in my head .