Hi Jason,
First of all, welcome to the Forum!
Second of all, what you are doing here is not beyond the scope of BioLogos because you seem to be struggling with questions concerning faith and science and the relationship between them. For example, see the blog article below for some short excerpts from a discussion that took place on this Forum:
Does the discussion there help you in some way? Also, feel free to start a new topic on any of the questions you have.
Casper