Keep going Joy. Hold on no matter how the realization of cultural evolution develops. And it can’t stop now.
Many of us have been there, are with you. Released from the comforting bondage of ignorance to the terrifying freedom of true ignorance.
There is one historical, forensic, documented, scientific fact remaining. The early Church, starting from a decade after the time of the story it is reacting to, was real and up and running and continues to this day. The early letters of Paul are real. Dwell on that.
And dwell on the QUALITY of the story Joy. The QUALITY, the divine intelligence in the Pericope Adulterae even though no one knows where it came from, late. The Holy Spirit has the lightest of touches. The quality abounds, from Cana to render unto Caesar and Eloi eloi, lama sabachthani and beyond.
Do you want it to be true? It can be.