Did Dawkins and and Hawking really admit the Big Bang is impossible?

Hey Matthew, just curious here. I’ve seen you talking in many topics about arguments for God which you think are bad (and I agree with you in most of your remarks), but it got me curious about what arguments/reasons you think are good or which reasons you personally have to be a theist. I don’t know if the question is too personal, but I would find it interesting to hear about them if possible (what reasons someone which is so critical, in the good sense, about arguments for God finds good/reasonable).