Arny vs. Jesus: Immortal Self-Preservation vs. Self-Giving Love
Be Careful What You Wish For
Resurrection sounds great, doesn’t it? Life forever, no more death, perfect existence. But be careful what you wish for—because if you get resurrection wrong, you might end up as Arnold Rimmer.
For those unfamiliar, Rimmer is the deeply unfortunate (and deeply insufferable) character from Red Dwarf, a man who dies and is resurrected as a hologram. But rather than coming back as a new and improved version of himself, he’s exactly the same—whiny, self-absorbed, neurotic—just now indestructible. He can’t die, but he also can’t grow, change, or move beyond his own flaws. If that’s resurrection, count me out.
And yet, that’s exactly how many people mistakenly think about eternal life—a kind of Fall 2.0, where instead of maturing into self-giving love, we try to preserve ourselves forever. But if the Fall was about clinging to the self, then the resurrection must be about giving it away.
The Fall as Puberty: The Struggle for Selfhood
The Fall in Genesis is often misunderstood as God punishing humanity for breaking a rule. But if we look at it more deeply, it’s not about punishment—it’s about the painful birth of selfhood.
Think of childhood. A child lives in unconscious dependence on their parents, much like Adam and Eve in the garden. There’s trust, security, and no existential crisis about identity. But then puberty hits. Suddenly, the teenager becomes self-aware, independent, and—crucially—rebellious. They push against authority, convinced they can define their own reality.
This is the core conflict of the Fall: Adam and Eve aren’t punished like naughty children; they are stepping into selfhood, but in the wrong way. Instead of trusting the Father as the source of life, they try to define themselves apart from Him. It’s not that God says, “Eat this and I’ll punish you with death”—it’s that He warns them, “If you cut yourself off from Me, you will die”, just like a parent warning their child about an electric cable.
To be a self, you must separate from authority. But the question is, what happens next?
Resurrection as Fall 2.0? The Danger of Getting It Wrong
The problem is that many people misunderstand the resurrection the same way they misunderstand the Fall. If the Fall was humanity seizing selfhood in the wrong way, some think resurrection is about taking that self and making it immortal. It’s as if we want to preserve our egos forever, untouched and unchanged—eternal life as a form of divine self-preservation.
But that’s not resurrection—that’s Arnold Rimmer.
Rimmer’s tragedy is that he gets a second chance at existence but stays exactly the same. He’s still obsessed with status, still bitter, still clinging to his fragile ego. He’s got eternity, but for what? Just to keep being himself, forever? If that’s the goal, then resurrection isn’t salvation—it’s a nightmare.
The True Resurrection: Losing the Self to Find It
The real purpose of resurrection isn’t to make the self last forever—it’s to transform it. The Fall happened because we clung to ourselves instead of trusting God. The resurrection reverses the Fall by bringing us to a place where we can freely give ourselves away.
This is exactly what Jesus shows. He doesn’t cling to His own life but gives it up completely:
“Whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for My sake will find it.” (Matthew 16:25)
True resurrection isn’t about preserving the self—it’s about being so free from self-obsession that we can finally love. It’s not a return to childhood innocence, nor is it eternal self-protection. It’s a step into mature, self-giving life, where we become fully alive because we’re no longer desperately holding onto ourselves.
Arnold Rimmer vs. Christ: Immortal Self-Preservation vs. Self-Giving Love
So here’s the real question: Do we want resurrection to be like Arnold Rimmer—where we just exist forever, unchanged? Or do we want it to be like Christ’s—where we become something more, not by clinging to ourselves, but by giving ourselves away?
The Fall was about defining ourselves apart from the Father. Resurrection is about returning—but not as unthinking children. We come back as freely-given selves, transformed by love, no longer obsessed with self-preservation but fully alive in trust.
I once reflected on death and the afterlife with:
“If I would wish to be recognized in a life after death
for something that makes me distinguishable from Jesus,
I would have failed.”
To live forever
is the art
to learn to live
in Jesus heart
True resurrection isn’t about making ourselves last forever; it’s about being so fully given in love that we become one with Him. That’s not losing the self—it’s finally becoming what we were always meant to be.