I’ve started reading the books on the Biologos Resources page. I find them interesting, but for some reason, I am scared of losing my faith. I am scared that God doesn’t understand me because I hold views like that of Denis Lameroux and others. And I think because hardcore creationists are against science, asking questions, and that doing though shows a “lack of faith.” That makes no sense to me. That’s fear of what we don’t understand. I think faith would be venturing out and feeling those uncomfortable feelings when you do the research, and have hope that, as He did with others, God will meet you where you are. That the verse “You will seek me and you will find me.” Is true.
I think the reason I am freaked out because there’ve been people who’ve gone on this journey, looked at the evidence, read, etc, and later became atheists. I don’t want to become an Atheist. And I’ve also been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder-OCD, so I think that may be part of the worry too.
Is this worth praying about?