I’m kind of in the boat. Except I think that demons use to exist and no longer do. I’m not certain if any of the disorders mentioned were actually mental disorders or not. It’s like if they did not exist, who was Jesus arguing against in the garden or was that story just symbolic and so on. Plus if they don’t exist does that also mean the hosts of heaven never existed and if not, did any supernatural being actually visit Mary and Joseph or Zechariah and so on. If angels were real it’s not hard for me to imagine evil angels to be real also.
But since I think the evil ones died already, including Satan and that the other experiences have ceased, it means I just have to extend my faith in them as much as I extend my faith into El still existing.
Ironically for me what made my faith more bearable was omnism. It helped validate the experiences of others from various faiths to me and made God seem way less selective and more universal in accommodating everyone around the world throughout history in ways that made sense to them.
I think God most likely does not exist. I’ve had 1-2 experiences that though could be explained naturally as just highly unlikely coincidences, I choose to just have faith. Faith is a choice. I have faith that these events and these pulls are of the Holy Spirit. Even if I also am aware it’s illogical.