“Faith shifts” take time. Like years. Most people don’t deconstruct and reconstruct their hermeneutics in a weekend. For me it was about five years and there are still some things I am pretty ambivalent about and don’t know what I believe. It’s okay to give yourself time to try out new ways of approaching the Bible to see what fits and what sticks and what proves to be uncomfortable in the long run.
I think some people come at the task wanting to exchange one set of right answers for a different set of right answers, and it feels a little disorienting when the process of seeking answers to the questions you thought you were working on just pushes you to a space where you have a new set of questions, and the old set of answers doesn’t help and there is no ready-made new set to adopt. I just wanted to be encouraging and say it’s okay to hang out in a gray zone for a while in certain areas. You can keep doing the things that feed your soul, like serving, worshiping, praying, and meditating on the truths you know, even if you are currently holding some things in tension. It’s those things that keep you grounded in relationship with Christ and experiencing his love and faithfulness.