It occurs to me to ask, has there been any time in Christian history when everybody agreed on exactly how to interpret the Bible?
I doubt it. We like to think of our current circumstances as unique, maybe even think as though if Darwin never wrote his book, we wouldn’t have anything to argue about, but having to evaluate the truth of things other people claim—maybe even good people we are close to—is a problem as old as the Bible itself (at least!).
@JacksonC, your struggles are real. Not wanting to keep living the way you have been is a serious sign that something’s wrong. But how do you want to live? If you had all the material things you wanted, would that make you happy? Or if someone was always there to cheer you up, would that be happiness? Or is there work you would have to do on yourself, so that you become the type of person who could fully enjoy these situations?
That’s a lot of work to, and working on yourself is usually the hardest kind of work there is. Not only that, it’s invisible, so it can feel like you’re not being productive at all. It’s overwhelming and confusing and depressing to stare at a mountain in your path and think about climbing it.
But here’s the thing, the big secret: once you do that work, once you weed and grow your garden, it’s yours. You don’t need money or entertainment to be happy. Instead, you have enough to share with others when they need it.
Religious teachings are our guidebooks to the really hard work we have to do. Nobody is saved because they believe in a worldwide flood.
Don’t give up. What kind of world do you want to live in?
*Disclaimer: I am just an internet commentator. I am not licensed or qualified to treat depression. If above advice makes things worse instead of better, disregard and seek professional help.