Thanks @MOls - I appreciate your understanding and empathy. Your words are kind and kindness is always meaningful & refreshing. The experience you and others perceive has indeed been unsettling … but God will hold me through this. I hope to come out the other side more enlightened - by the Holy Spirit.
If you and others reading can indulge me in a generalised rant though … I still grieve that God didn’t give any clues to evolution explicitly in the Bible. That said, I remain very intrigued by an earlier idea proposed by @Marshall way back in this thread (around post 14) that maybe there were such clues. I want to believe it (still not being a fan of evolution as outlined) … but the bits I’ve read about Hebrew grammar/syntax would maybe disagree with this being possible? But then, maybe not? I would love if someone wanted to expand on this … but before you do - please consider what I say below.
Connected to this line of thinking - that maybe the Bible did indeed give clues to evolution, in listening to Peter Enn’s Inspiration and Incarnation (via audio book) I’ve been hearing today how Paul interpreted scripture using methods common in what was called the second temple era (the time between second temple construction and destruction). For example, how Paul spoke about Jesus being the seed of Abraham actually capitalised on ambiguity in the Hebrew language where the original word for seed used in Genesis could be singular or plural but was generally understood to be plural (applying to many people, eg Abraham’s seed) but Paul uses it in the singular - Jesus was the singular, special seed of Abraham. As if to intensify the word play, Paul then expands his analogy out again to also apply to us - who are in Jesus.
Hermeneutically what Paul did was a no no. It was naughty. And he almost certainly knew what he was saying wasn’t the original meaning of the language in the scriptures in Genesis where that word seed was used. Paul whoever, as we know, was a pretty top notch bible scholar of his day, a Pharisee of Pharisees. Yet he handled the Holy scriptures in this way. He created, by the ‘inspiration’ of the Holy Spirit - new meaning where meaning had not been before.
Treading carefully forward then … by this line of logic - could we not actually make Genesis 1 fit with science? I suppose we could do all kinds of tricks and flips using the method Paul did … but out of all the tricks and flips available to us by using this line of reasoning … syncing Genesis 1 with actual reality would seem like a pretty noble and or desirable one. It would land us on some solid ground. Other flips and tricks might land us on our necks with a broken nine or two. But not this flip. Solid ground - like those Tokyo Gymnasts we’re all gonna be in awe of later this year at the Olympics.
If it was unnamed scholars holed up somewhere in Babylon whom God used to bring forth the Old Testament - the poor souls after the shock and trauma of exile were desperate to find meaning and who felt lost after being thrust from the home land they new and felt comfortable it - if it was people in this desperate position who God actually used to bring us the Scriptures are there not parallels for how we Christians today feel disoriented and lost trying to understand how science is so desperately ‘other’ to the scriptures. Our backs are up against the wall - for people like me, nothing makes sense anymore. Crisis town. But just as with those exiles … could not the Holy Spirit guide us to compile or by His inspiration ‘reinterpret’ Genesis to accord with truth as the Spirit of truth? The Lord of truth just as Jesus was and is Lord of the Sabbath. Seems like something the Holy Spirit would do … and it would add to the mysterious grandeur of Genesis (just saying I’ve been listening to Kalopsia (Original Mix Edit) and now Cafe Del Mar (DeadMau5 edit) while writing this - feels, special - maybe even spiritual somehow. Try reading this while listening to those).
Anyway, I’ll put forward what I’m thinking expand using that logic described … I can see how Genesis 1 could indeed say ‘the earth produced’ (eg evolution) as did the sea as @Marshall said … and I can say God hovering over the waters was the start of life in those waters as I’ve read somewhere else and I can say that the tiny gap of ambiguity in the language of Day 4 can mean that God meant the stars were already there and he just ‘set’ them in their fixed place as I’ve also read elsewhere. Things begin to fit together this way. What of plants being around before animals? Well, my limited research of the first cells has shown me that these cells more or less did turn into the cells that formed the first basic plants. I can recompile that. So we have a God who brooded over the earth and formed life by his mere presence - his presence ordered the chaos into life (La Guitarra by Orjan Nislen on the music now - go my Playlist, go God?). God formed life - with the intention of being life. Death is not what God wanted but it was there. Pain was not felt for millennia. Is somehow the experience of pain connected to spiritual death? I don’t know as the timeline would most certainly not fit death being introduced by man that way - as pain far far pre-existed Adam. Unless we get real tricky and say in the same way Jesus was the lamb slain before the foundation of the world - Adam’s sin and associated death was also present at the foundation or not long after the foundation of the world. Speaking to eternal realities in a deep spiritual way, somehow?
I’ll leave my analysis there and jump back into an earlier edit now … hope it’s not to long this post but it feels a bit ground breaking for me. Bear with its longness
All that said, I kind of know this is not what Genesis 1 originally meant - I’m making it say what I want it to - forcing the text and capitalising on pockets of ambiguity. But then, the apostles Matthew and Paul did the very same thing speaking of scriptures in the Old Testament… to sound a little repetitive hear … would not the Holy Spirit speaking of Christ (like Matthew and Paul very much were) through whom all things were made allow such an interpretation rather than having to settle for the immensely sad and desperately disappointing “God didn’t reveal it to them because they wouldn’t have understood and there is no way Genesis 1 can be reconciled with actual fact”.
I’m not naive or arrogant enough to suggest I’m the first person to put this view forward - I’m sure - I know - others would have. It would be interesting to read more about specifically that if anyone knows any sources?? (or wants to just address it).
I know I’m jumping around in my thoughts a bit here … but it’s an interesting and helpful experience for me. And nice to have people supporting and helping the process - hopefully, we are all being helped through it … certainly it’s helping me