I don’t think that’s it. Primarily (before anything else), it’s utterly foreign to my way of thinking and processing. When I encounter mysticism (at least as I recognize it), it feels like a mental collision. I mentioned to you that when I watched McGilchrist talk with one of the English Buddhist monks, I felt utterly lost in metaphor. My overall feeling toward mysticism a lot like that.
It also, to my sense of feel, feels like giving control for processing and interpretation to someone else who may not deserve my trust. There doesn’t seem to be discussion or chewing it over, just acceptance of, submission to what is given. Just thinking about that feeling makes me bristle.
I don’t necessarily avoid mysticism, but the neighborhood where it would most likely be found isn’t on any of my normal routes, so I rarely encounter it. If that makes sense.
@LM77 and I have shared a bit with each other that we fit right smack dab among the Frozen Chosen (cerebral, Calvinist-leaning types, who during worship, sing heartily to the Lord with our hands firmly holding the hymnal or pew in front of us, and who experience things like Communion silently and internally). From the outside we usually look unmoved, even disinterested. But a bit of bread, a bit of wine or juice, and a few words from the pastor about Jesus, words we know by heart, are the concrete, move us deeply internally.
But I wouldn’t call that mystical.
It’s interesting that many people put a lot of emphasis on this. By tradition, I’m used to a very few: church attendance, singing during the church, prayer (my personal prayer life is a wreck, btw), Bible reading, Communion and Baptism. You could also maybe add in weddings and funerals. That’s it. We keep it simple. But that’s also good in my mind. The rituals don’t become an end in themselves, which I think they sometimes do, when people add a lot on. But I’m also looking and judging that from the outside. The “rituals” I am part of are tied directly to learning and communion both with other believers and with Jesus. So they are very specific in what they target.
So hard to describe what I even mean here.